20 Oct
i was very hurt on that day. 5.30am ride bike to prime supermarket to find chocolate, milky bar for her breakfast becos she will eat it everyday and treat it as breakfast.
after buying, ride to springfield backgate to wait for her, saw her and walk towards her. she kay siao turn away, i walk faster towards her, pass her chocolate, her breakfast and greentea. she give me a feeling that she dont want to see me. i just pass to her & walk away. i was very sad, i went to find my friend then we continue to play bike cos i think its a good idea to forget the feeling you given to me for a short time than taking taking drugs & drinking beer.
9am i go home sleep, 5.30pm go take exam, then chiong bike all the way to morning.

th next day, 21 Oct.
5.30am went to buy chocolate, i intend to give her a surprise by going to her & hang the breakfast on the door & give her a surprise when she going to sch, she will open the door and saw the chocolate hanging on the door. but the god did not give me a chance to send the chocolate safely to her house, instead i got bike accident when going to her house. but wan to send til her hse n gib her surpisze but bike spoilt n i tk morning bus to her hse cos btw the bus start + my walkin timing she already open door go out le
i was afraid she woke up and i was late and its already 6am. so i rush very fast at the highway going to her house and buang. i hate the god so much not becos of the accident but becos i did not send the breakfast to her. why don't the god let me buang when i send the breakfast to her already and on th way coming back. the god really very ccb & pcb & neineikodai. i help my friend to a corner and pull the bike up and push to a corner.
take cab to hospital after that, when going to register my friend saw his uncle & we walked out to sit until his uncle go for half and hour and let the blood flow. after he left, we went for check up. the doctor ask me to wear the mask cos i having fever. then the nurse help me dress and put the alcohol to help me clean my wound, my face steam. when i at hospital, i msg her tell her i at hospital, but she reply me a then? i feel so sad until i cant describe it.
once i am discharge of the hospital i rush to springfield and meet Derrick and pass him the chocolate. Derrick went to look for her, but she went for excursions. then the god made a fool of me again. i beg Derrick to look for her at 6pm cos she's only back at 6pm. derrick passed to her already & tell her what happen, & her reply was really meh? when derrick tell me, i feel so sad. then i go for my exam, then come back home.
she did msg me at around 10plus, asking me not to buy chocolate for her again cos she say its a waste of money. i tell her to concern bout me & she did. i am very happy but after that, she keep asking me to forget her, but i can't. after few msg, there was no reply.
and i got difficulties walking up & down the stairs.